I don't like this rut my life has taken; I volunteer every week, I have Thursday free, I visit my parents over the weekend and Monday it starts all over again without any changes. I am now actively searching for some kind of work and it isn't working out very well. I'm applying my skills to quite a few places in the city and not getting any replies or just getting outright rejected. Not having money, not earning money and aging on top of it is damned stressful. I don't like this night. I don't like waiting for my life to start.